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[Jan. 15th, 2005|11:17 pm] |
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Well..hmm Katie's whole family pretty much hates me by now...hmm long story, but being the guy, everything is pretty much my fault..I havent updated in a while, so I just firgured I'd let you all know that. |
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| AH FUCK IT ALL |
[Dec. 25th, 2004|07:27 pm] |
Katie, used to smoke...she PROMISED me that she'd stop..BULLSHIT! I"m at her house today...CHRISTMAS of all days...and she opens up her dresser drawer...and there they are...a new box of ciggretes....I know I cant spell it dammit....AH FUCK!!! What am I gonna do with her!?! I cant break up with her...because I cant do to much with out her...ahh DAMMIT!
Sorry just gotta vent...(anyone who reads this...no one knows..she'd kill me...ah fuck it she deserves it!) |
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[Dec. 20th, 2004|08:35 pm] |
Life is an intersting trip...when you think it's over...it's only really just begun....that's what happened with katie and I...hmmm ahh...now only if we could keep our pants on ;-) heh
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| Fuck the world..... |
[Dec. 16th, 2004|03:06 pm] |
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AHH FUCK THE WORLD!!! AHHH I'M SO FUCKING CONFUSED!!!! FUCK FUCK FUCK....so im sitting in econ...the only class kaite and I have together..she comes in and talks to me like nothing ever happend...FUCK! and you know what else pisses the fuck outta me!? SHE'S HAPPIER NOW THAN SHE EVER WAS BEFORE!!! FUCK! DAMN SHIT! |
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| ...it is finished |
[Dec. 15th, 2004|07:49 pm] |
....it's over....Katie and I broke up today...:-( It's strange...she broke up with me because I care too much...hmm I was trying to be kind, but I guess I was too kind...we're still gonna be friends...but I can not possibly see how that's gonna work...FUCK! Part of me is sad...part is happy..I cant cry...so I guess I'm not too sad...hmm I guess what ever happens happens
AW FUCK IT! |
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[Oct. 6th, 2004|05:54 pm] |
....why?? Isan't that the question of the century. I'm not happy with Katie...im quite mad at her...and I don't know why. Thats the worst part. It would be different if I knew why I was mad at her...but I dont. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH why am I mad at her?! WHY!? ....she frustrates me... a lot. But, I guess maybe becaue I like to get thigns done and she takes her time gettin stuff done. Like we're supposed to go to her homecomming Saturday...well at her old school. And mom's goin though all this bother...gettin the suit cleaned buyin shoes, a flower thingy. She's doin so much...and with all luck we wont end up going DAMMIT!!! I"M SO FUCKING MAD! I need to kill something. AHHHHH
I've just gotta take a deep breath and go back into play it cool mode.
AH BUT IM SO FUCKING MAD! |
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| It's been a while |
[Sep. 26th, 2004|08:58 pm] |
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Well Lets see...I have butt loads of stuff to report...where to start...where to start
For starters I figure I'll share the good news with you guys. Katie and I are offically going out!! WOOO :-) That excites me beyond ALL reason...makes me super happy. It's been one hella long time...I've been praying and trying and hoping, then out of no where Katie shows up. An answer to prayer she is. WOAH! I thought she wanted to break up with me tonight when I went to visit her up at work!! AHH it made me all nervious when she said she had bad news. But all it was is that she had to work on Saturday, so that means no bowling...maybe. But yes, it's pretty awesome to have a GF... makes me super happy. We went to see Napoleon Dynamite...my 9th time! WHAO! I know, it's a lot of times. But though-out the ENTIRE movie we pretty much held hands and she laied on my shoulder. Wow, do ANY of you know how long I've been waiting for that?! I'm sure that A lot of you do. But anyway...Thats prob the BEST news I've had since....trilogy Tuesday...which was pretty much the happest day of my life.
Where to now...school! School's been goin pretty good...I don't think I'm doin too well...I really need to study for tests and such...which is a real problem cause I dont do that...ever. But if I wanna do well this year, I need to. As far as I know, I'm doin the worst in Chem...I like chem a lot ...maybe I'm doin the worst because I know how I'm doin, I dont have too good of an idea of how I'm doin in any other classes. But...all I can do is my best right?!
Now onto work. I prob have the biggest prob with work as of the time I'm writing this. I tottaly fucked up. I'm sure I'm taking it WAY harder than it is ment to be taken...but everytime we open our cashier drawers the printer prints out these note things and we have to sign them and say why we opened our drawers. Well, I was told that no one looks at them and they are just thrown away. So I figured I'd just have some fun. So I wrote as one of the reasons, " For the nookie" which as most of you can guess was a HORRIBLE idea. So I went to pick up Kaite last night to go see Napoleon and I saw my boss and asked him if I could have my "stub" so that I would know how much was being deposited into my bank. So he said sure and we went into the back. He handed it to me and sad, "whats with these" and showed me the notes that I had written on. I felt my ears go red, I could feel the blood rushing to my head...I was NOT happy. I had tottaly Fucked up. The only thing that I can remeber that he said was, "I'm trying to run a business here, I dont need this kind of crap." Apparently they are send to corporate head quarters.... :-( But I wrote him a letter...saying how sorry I was and how immature it was to do something like that. I havent gotten a response back yet, but I assume that it's because he hasnt been up there. I hope everything goes well.
I asked Katie to go to Mentor's homecomming with me, but the thing is, neither of us REALLY wanna go...so we were gonna go bowling, so I requisted Saturday off...then I go into see Katie tonight, and she's workin till ten! ARGH!! But, Katie wants to go to her old school's home comming and it's only ten bucks to get in and we're gonna go with some friends from work. So I requisted the 9th off too...I really hope Brian, my boss, doesnt get mad and lets me have it off...I'm tryin really hard, and I like work...a lot. It's really quite fun.
I have this insane fear....that my friends dont like me as much as they did over the summer....why is that?.... I dont know....I really dont...it doesnt make me happy...hmmm maybe I need to see someone...nah...I dont want to. But why? As I said...I dont know. I'm sure it's just me...yah..it's gotta be!
I got my own car! WOO I can't remeber if I reported that or not...but I love having freedom to come and go as I please...it is quite wonderful. Hmm I dont know how to end this entry...lets see..have I been doin anything else? OH! I can tell everyone the important release dates...when I will be dropping a BUTT load of money. Lets see...first off is Nov. 21st...when Nintendo DS comes out...OO MAN! I cant wait. Then in December...it's the big one...December 14th...aww man I 'm SUPER DUPER EXCITED!! ROTK EE!! WOOOOOO I cant wait.
I'm makin this entry in hopes to get all my problems off my mind and get back to bein my normal carefree self. I have the whole thing with Brian hangin' over my head....it will pass my child. I've just gotta relax...ahh it feels good. ... I need help with chem....I'll have to get it at lunch tomarrow...I don't understand it. Oh well. |
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| More about katie |
[Sep. 15th, 2004|07:07 pm] |
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WEll I need some help again....ok I asked katie's best friend...and Katie DOES like me...now I need help....how do I ask someone out?? I was just gonna say something like..."hey, so like um....do you wanna be bf/gf?? or do you just wanna be friends..." Hows that??? I dont know..I was gonna ask her at the end of the date because if it goes wrong I dont wanna have to spend the whole time being sucky and all....so please, give your advice!! tahnks!! |
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[Sep. 12th, 2004|08:41 pm] |
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Another date! Friday....dont have a time set...nor do I know what we're gonna do...any suggestions?? |
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[Sep. 6th, 2004|10:44 pm] |
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Well, the date was...interesting....I dont have too much to say about it...mm lets see, waht can I say?? It was fine...I only messed up once...I think...I said, "it was much more fun hangin out with you than counting the shingles on my neighbor's roof!!" ..and I think she took it as an insault...but...I dont know...I didnt mean it that way!! not at all!! But, school starts in like 2 days...so...that will be a good time...I sure hope everythign at school goes well...oo man...all I can do is hope and do my best. |
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| WAR! WHAT IS IT GOOD FOR?! |
[Aug. 23rd, 2004|10:27 pm] |
Well after long dilbritaion..I know I tottaly messed up the spelling of that....but oh well! you get the point! The contest was tough...but....alas...I'm only choosing a winner because I half to. I'd have to say cousin dave wins with Fish Heads only because...well I couldnt find most of the songs...YA Toast comes in second..because well its just AWESOME! and Dan...ya...lol ok you win third.
Well after that was over...lets see....what can I say? Life's been interesting...we've had some odd meetings and events happen...
Hmm what can I report to ya'll....school in 2 weeks...hmm not sure if I wanna go back...oh well, I dont really have a choice do I now?! no...sir you dont. Thanks for the interjection jim.
Oh! I should prob intruduce everyone to my *friend* Mr. Jim Garrison. Theres a long story behind him...well not really but I just dont remeber how, or quite frankly why he came about, but we argue a lot.
So Laura...I bet your all wondering how things are with her ( I know your not but Im gonna tell ya anyways!!) She doesnt talk to me much anymore, well shes not online...and I did call her to invite her to "Breakfast at Andrea's" but she had "something else to do" psh oh well her loss right?!
OH MAN! I could tell you guys about "breakfast at Andrea's"! that was a blast!! It all started last monday, at my sister's panio recitle. I wanted to go to bob evens to get some strawberry lemonade...so I text messaged Melissa and asked her if she wanted to go! She said sure...but then when I got home she called and Andrea wanted to go too...well I wanted everyone to go and have a good time! But, Andrea didnt have any money...soooooo she had the brillant idea of having breakfast at her house!! WHEW BOY! was that a good time!! We had catalope fights and ate pancakes and other breakfast foods. Ya, it was a blast.
THEN!!! after we were done eating...I went and looked at the movie listings in the newspaper....and lo and behold...Napoleon Dynamite is showing again!! oo man, i just about died...I didnt belive the paper so I had to call the theater and it was right! NAPOLEON DYNAMITE IS BACK!!
So later that night Melissa, I, Ryan, Jess, and Paul all went to see it! oh man...it just gets better every flippin time I see it! Whew...gotta love it.
Hmm lets see..what else....not too much...no...not really. OH! I did go to visit fukin'! He's doin well...we had a good time gettin pie and watchin his movie...wow...what a WEIRD movie lol.
Oh man! and Laura did me ONE kind favor...she introduced me to her friend christine...who I am talkin to right now. Shes pretty awesome!! she plays the paino...and plays video games and such. Just over all, a pretty awesome person to talk to. (tho, I'm glad I'm not talkin to her in real life right now cause my breath STINKS! heh)
Well im out for now! have a nice day!
I forgot to post about my surgery! So, I'll do it now! Everything went fine...I was walkin normal within a couple days I was only in surgery for an hour or so and then I was walkin right out of the door within a few hours. So, as you can tell, everything went wonderfully. |
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| Wow -- Its kinda like that |
[Aug. 6th, 2004|08:43 pm] |
Well lets see...What can I say? the world turns and so do gears on a bicycle. This past week with out Melissa has been interesting...not too much changed, just her silliness was missed. Oh well she was in Cali and I'm sure had a good time.
I downloaded Doom 3 on the day it came out, and I must say, that game is scary as hell. Of course it doesnt take much to scare me so I guess it's not all taht scary. But it sure is fun blowing up satan infested humans!! Or fun blowing up anything for that matter. Hehe, told mom about Doom today, and about satan takes over mars and theres lots of "evil" stuff in it. But that your trying to save mars and stop satan from taking it over. She told me that, that is how satan begins to get a hold on your life...and take it over and turn me in to a living breathing hell hole. I can understand what shes sayin...but its not like im worshiping satan or anything of the type. I guess its nice that shes concerned.
Been hanin' out with Jess a lot lately...shes still pretty awesome. But I'd rather be friends then date her...I dont know...who does?
What else, what else. Also downloaded Napoleon Dynamite!! Gotta love that movie. Although, its outta theaters, and thats the MAIN reason I downloaded it. And yes, I'm tottaly going to buy the DVD when it comes out. Got Laura 's''s screen name!! WOOT! ..wow I've never said "WOOT" before... Shes awesome gotta love the way she handles things...well I guess...handle is the right word...but she doesnt handle...wow, thats confusing. Shes just over all pretty awesome.
Surgery Pretesting went QUITE well...although I passed out, which sucked...and it was AFTER they took the blood and all...so I dont konw what was up with that, but it was a good time. Surgery is still the 12th.
Umm OH! Yes, I've decided to have a contest. Who ever can suggest the "best" song that they can come up with for me to download will win a prize. I'm not gonna say what it is...it wont be that big of deal, BUT you'll have the bragging rights of being able to say," YES! I won the "suggest the best song in the world" contest!!"
Rules:
1. Song must be some what amuzing. ie: funny or other magickal things.
2. See rule number 1.
3. All I need is the name of the song. Dont need to know who sings it, or plays it. If you feel like telling me, then do.
4. And your name...if your not logged into LiveJournal...so as I can give you credit
the contest will end...when I feel that it should. Sorry this is so long...but then again I guess you didint have to read it. Peace out. |
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[Aug. 1st, 2004|05:33 pm] |
Well well well...lets see...what more important things do I have to report? Well nothing too important...'cept that the Howard Shore concert last night was...AWESOME!!! There are no words to describe the power that went though the concert hall...was soo amazing. To give you the slighest idea...there was a 10 minute standing ovation at the end. Wow...it was deffenitly amazing.
On Thursday 'Drea, Brian, Melissa and I went to Outback so taht Melissa could see the kid that she likes...at least I think she likes him...hmm ya. she does. That was fun, after "eating" we went to Brian's house to share his mom's birthday. And we played the "Worst Case survival game" and Mel and 'drea won...so rubbed it in brian and ryan's (the kid mel likes came with us) face, stating that they were the best boy scouts in the world. I guess they are..? Whatever.
On Friday, Melissa left for Califorina. She sent me 2 text messages on Saturday night whilst I was at the concert. I guess shes havin an awesome time!! But then again how could you not have an awesome time in califorina!
I think sometime this week Jess, 'drea and a few other people are all gonna go see Napoleon Dynamite again!! Cause well..its awesome! YES! YES IT IS! Alright...I dont wanna go to work tomarrow. But I guess I cant help it. Alright, well I'm out. |
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| Today is the day |
[Jul. 29th, 2004|04:05 pm] |
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH FOTR IS 50 TODAY!!!!!! WHEEEEE I'm super excited!! hmm lets see what's been going on since I last posted. I got married on Tuesday, to Andrea. That was fun, then we had our own trilogy Tuesday...which was completely awesome. I also met Andrea and Melissa's friend...Laura...who is SOO awesome...I wanna date her...gotta hang out with her again sometime...shes really pretty awesome. The reason I didnt post for a long time is because this comp burned out...the harddrive completely erased it self...ya, it sucked.
So I think I'm gettin over Mel...like totally...because today Jess and I went over her house to say hi and bye before she leaves for Cali. And Mel was makin out wtih some guy...ryan?...and I wasnt even jealous...or mad...it made me sad a little bit but it was all good. So ya!! thats a major plus!! HMmm lets see what else.
Saw Napoleon Dynamite...one of the most amazing movies of all time...it might even beat out bubba ho tep...hmm I'll have to think about that some more...It's super funny, check it out. http://www2.foxsearchlight.com/napoleondynamite/ so amazing. well I dont think theres much left to say. I'm a bit worried about my surgery pretesting on monday...and those of you who know why...well know why...but I should be ok...hmm yea, I sure hope so.
well I'm out, its good to leave a message for all. Bye!! |
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| Sometimes you gotta say, "hey! I'm gonna F*** you!" |
[Jul. 22nd, 2004|10:40 am] |
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Alright lets see what can I say? Yesterday was cedar point...it was fun! it really was a blast. I just wish it wasnt so damned hot and humid. It must of been like 90 or so...too damned hot either way. I went with melissa, mark, and laura. quite a fun crowd...but I dont think I've ever been with a group of people that like to touch each other so much...hmm twas odd but enjoyable, I guess. Melissa and Laura like "playing" with mark a little too much, but can you blame them? We're all hormonally stricken chidren...or in Mark and Melissa's case, adults.
I have had recent "visions" of me killing myself, although I have no desire to do such a thing, it is really quite bizarr. Like yesterday I had one that I opened the door of Melissa's car and just fell out on to the road and became a bloody stump. Also when I was riding in the car with mom I had a "vision" that I grabbed the back of my head and slammed it against the dashboard of the car until I died...odd, I know...very weird.
The human mind is an amazing thing, I have learned recently, it can be your best friend or your worst enemy.
I need to stop expecting things...just gotta roll along life not expecting anything, but can I do that? I'm so used to constantly expecting life to take me in different directions, and sometimes they are right, and sometimes wrong. But I dont think it's anything I'm doing, I'm trying my hardest, then if it's not my fault then who's fault is it? |
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| AHHH |
[Jul. 17th, 2004|02:24 pm] |
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Well nothing of too much importance to report...'cept I shaved my beard!! AHHH it burns!! I HATE RAZOR BURN!! ...I'm not going to shave it again...all summer long...I WANT IT BACK!!! I just shaved it...my chin is cold...burrrrr :-( I shouldnt of done it. Oh well, it will grow back right!?
ok, lets see, what do I have to report?
Melissa and Andrea are back home from camp, that's cool, I'm glad they're back. I work today, sunday and monday...AHHH I'm not excited about standing all that time. But time is money right? I really hope I dont miss out on anything...like any parties or such related events, those are always fun.
Jess left today, on her camping trip with her friend...whom I dont know the name of...but apparently I know who she is.
Brian (who's birthday it was a couple of days ago) had some fun last night. WOOOHOO Brian! Takin' advantage! Good Job my lad. I only wish I could be as successful. AHH MY BEARD! I MUST HAVE IT BACK! I'm NAKED! ok hmm what else...Got a new video game! OH YA! Tales of Symphonia...it's RPG style, pretty rockin. Lets see what else.
OH! I'm allowed to hang out with BOTH of my cousins! OH YA! I haven't been able to that in forever because they were a "bad influence". heh--not much has changed.
Whoa! and I found this new program called, "windowblinds" where it lets you customise your like too bars and such with what ever themed thingy you can find!! Right now I have LOTR! WHEE!! hmmm what else...OH! my hydrocele surgery!!
*warning* this is odd and concerning...I can't figure out how to do LJ-cut and I dont have time to spend on how to figure it out...sorry guys. *warning*
( Read more... )
Ok, I'm not sure if I did that cut right..but we'll see. Well...I'm out for now! I'll talk to ya'll later! |
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| Wheee |
[Jul. 14th, 2004|11:11 am] |
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Well yesterday was pretty fun. Lets see, woke up then took mom to work so that I could have the car all day. Then about 10:30 I went to go get Jess, so that we could buy stuff for Brian for his birthday. We were successful beyond all reason. Jess and I went to Marcs and bought TONS of fun stuff! We basically went around and picked out random things. I'd say the two best things we got were a child's training potty, and a four inch palm tree. We filled the potty with lots of fun stuff, like toothpaste, hand sanitizer, and a pez dispenser. Then we were gonna buy a whole pie, but it was a bit pricey so we just got Brian his own special "Birthday slice". Then Jess and I sang happy birthday for him, and brian showed us a camel spider online. I'm pretty sure that the only reason he did this is because he didnt know what to do with us. lol. But it was fun none the less. Then about 2:00 or so I had to take Jess home and go get mom at work. Then I hung around until about 5:30 when I had to go to "Lava Lava Island"...which is vacation bible school up at my church. It was a waste of time...if you asked me. But either way it was a way to spend time. After that I came home and had some ice cream then decided that I'd follow through and call Melissa at camp. Apparently camp is sucking for her...a lot. There's a new director because our school system doesn't have any money to keep the old one. And she sucks. The director is completely clueless about how to direct. I feel bad for Mel. But that's about it for now. My hand is hurting...I've not typed with out stopping since school. Only 17 days until the howard shore concert! WHEEEE. |
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| Ummm? |
[Jul. 13th, 2004|07:56 am] |
Check this out:
Oh ya, that's Def what's going to happen. WHEEEEE JELLO!! |
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| Hmmmmmmmm |
[Jul. 9th, 2004|05:40 pm] |
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Everytime I update it seems to have something to deal with a strong emotion...this time it's sadness. I dont know why I keep trying...I always get turned down...always. Everytime I call Melissa to do something...always turned away...but, theres nothing I can do about it...I'm sure she'll read this and then I'll feel bad...but my purpose is not to make anyone feel bad or guilty or cause any emotion at all. I just want to get my thoughts out...it helps. Then I'm not sad/mad or anything else for a long period of time. But I should stop callin' her...I was always told, " Take action, no one's gonna take it for you." but it's not working...maybe I'm just callin at the wrong time. I know she doesnt hate me...
Oh well right?! Just gotta work on dropping stuff...things will get worse...worse things will happen to me...when my parent's die...when someone leaves for ever...my senior year it gonna be hard...everyone leaving?! what am I gonna do?...I'll have to start anew...I hate reality and I wish I could just go into my own world. But I dont wanna be like my aunt who ALWAYS lives in her own world. Gotta tackle real life head on. I just need a break sometimes. Can't turn to drugs no..that would be bad. Just gotta keep on truckin...and the truck will run out of gas. But when that time comes, let me cease to exist. I will not give up!! I will find someone.
"A day may come when the courage of men fails, when we forsake our friends and break all bonds of fellowship. But it is not this day. An hour of wolves and shatered sheild when teh age of men comes chrashing down. But it is not this day! This day we fight! By all that you yhold dear on this good earth, I bid you stand men of the west!" --Aragorn Rotk... |
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